Probation Officer #79: From the inside

Sa’afia opened her mouth and shut it. She frowned, and then nodded solemnly.

“And I’m going to find your little cunt wet, girl. If you’re not wet, I’m going to take my belt to you. Understood?”

She’d already have been wet, but I gave her a few seconds to react to the threat to take my belt to her. I knew that would have reached her. Sa’afia nodded, then gasped when I pushed inside her, reaching excited girl wertness immediately.

I pressed my fingers upwards, from inside her, to press against that spongy upper vaginal wall. And I smacked her again with my other hand. Sa’afia made a higher pitched sound, with very little pain in it. She was going to come soon, if I wasn’t careful. I said, “shhhhhhh.”

hugs afterI kissed her, still stroking slippery, sensitive Sa’afia cunt. Sa’afia turned to face me, spread her thighs wider, and put her arms round me. We kissed. I was still stroking her, but I rested my other hand on her ass. She was burning hot on the undercurves of her buttocks, where I’d smacked her hardest.

I could have objected to her moving without my permission, but she was too welcome in my arms for me to pretend to make an issue of it. Neither of us could help reaching for the other. We were a clothed Jaime and a naked, freshly spanked Sa’afia, holding each other.

We’d been here before. It was all as it should be.

Probation Officer #77: Lemon-colored

Sa’afia was in the kitchen. She had her back to me. Her bare back. I stopped at the end of the corridor to stare at her. A dark-golden girl. Sweet thighs with just a trace of plumpness, and a very slight tremor in the muscle just under the crease of her left buttock. Gorgeous ass, with a swimsuit triangle of slightly paler skin contrasting with the tanned skin of her back and legs.

She had her hands on her head, so I could just see the swell of the underside of her left breast. 

She must have heard me coming down the corridor, though I’d tried to be quiet when I approached. But I was sure she hadn’t had her hands on her head all the time she was waiting. Other girls who enjoyed being bad girls, or at least being treated as bad girls, had told me that holding their arms in that position starts to hurt at about half an hour, and burns after about an hour.

I appreciated that it was costing her some effort not to turn around. My silence was unnerving her. 

ass and socksSa’afia had brought out two things to set our agenda. There was some sort of rod on the table, thicker than I expected, wood rather than rattan or cane. And she was wearing a pair of bright lemon-coloured socks. The socks were to disobey what I’d told her on the phone, that she had to be naked. The horrible dayglo-citrus colour was to make sure I noticed, and to make it clear that I was supposed to notice. And the rod meant what it meant.

It crossed my mind to say something amused about the socks, something playful and reassuring.

But I stepped forward suddenly, without having formed any conscious intention, and put the flat of my left hand on her lower belly, where the top of her pubic hair would have been. Sa’afia was a waxing girl. With my right hand I pushed her shoulders gently so she leaned forward, slightly bent at the waist.

Sa’afia looked at my face, and I nodded. I didn’t know what I meant, but she did. Then I smacked her bottom, hard, watching her eyes. She held her face turned to mine but she was no longer really looking at me. She was focussing on sensation now, not on the visual world. I watched her mouth for the little movement she made when I hurt her a little.

And, with real force, I smacked her again. 

Probation Officer #61: Holding his own

I didn’t have much time to think about Sa’afia once I got to work. The manager of a farm about ten kilometres out of town had caught Lance Holder masturbating behind a barn. When the manager challenged him Lance had run for it. The manager had caught up with him near the barn entrance, and punched him a couple of times while Lance got his pants up.

Wanker!

Wanker!

The manager had tried to lock Lance in the barn, so he could call the cops. Lance had hit him with a garden stake. The manager fell over, and Lance ran. Another farmhand called the police, who’d picked Lance up while he was hitchhiking back to town. The farm manager had provoked a pointless incident, and he hadn’t really been hurt, but he’d shown that Lance had more violence in him than anyone had thought. Lance’s career as a comic figure was over.

His violence had arguably been provoked, it was relatively trivial, and it was only indirectly connected to his sexual behaviour. But he was now a violent sexual offender. He was in police custody.

I got to see him after waiting three hours, but he had nothing to say. So I went back to the office and started a report on what the probation service had been doing with him for the past year, including the four months he’d been on my caseload. Because that was a question someone was going to ask.

There were many ugly aspects to the situation, but one of them was that I could see that we’d been wrong to think Lance wasn’t capable of violence, but I couldn’t see what we could have done to prevent that incident. Lance wasn’t in jail. If I wrote a report that really did say what I thought had gone wrong, it’d be referred above my head and get re-written. But even if I can’t write the full truth I like to have an idea what the full truth is. In this case I didn’t know.

So it was a bad day. Sa’afia called me in the afternoon. On my office phone. She’d been expecting to hear from me. She wanted to tell me off for not calling, and putting my mobile on “Do not disturb.” I stopped her. 

“Have you heard from your mother?”

“Yes. She’s still out. So you can come over tonight. If you still even want to.”

“Sa’afia, you can stop that right now. I expect you to call me and tell me whether your home is available or if you’re coming to me.”

“Yes, but -“

“Is that understood?” There was silence. I found myself cheering up, though I kept any trace of that out of my voice. “Do you understand, girl?”

“Well. Yes.” 

lipI considered asking if she’d just bitten her lip. She would have if I’d been there to see it. But there were parts of the game that couldn’t be played over the phone. Instead I said, “Yes, what?”

“Yes, indeed.” 

I had to grin. Sa’afia didn’t have a bratty bone in her body, but it was a good try.

Anyway, she wouldn’t see the grin. I made myself sound angry. “Sa’afia!” 

Wood work #6: Motion and Emotion

I’m still busy. I was going to say something about the changes that the paddle enforces on the submissive receiving it: her body moves, involuntarily, and she has very little choice over the emotions she feels. In my experience and observation, even if she starts with the feeling that the punishment is unjust, she’ll have accepted it, and be sorry for having earned it (as opposed to just sorry that her bottom hurts) by the end. But I’ve only got a few computer minutes today.

So instead we’re going with the fact that “Motion and Emotion” sounds like a Jane Austen title. And that made me curious about whether Jane Austen fans have been writing bdsm versions of their favourite books. It turns out that there’s an internet-load of spanking slash porn involving Austen characters. Here’s a sample.

Emma: Jane Austen, amended Lisabet Sarai:
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50 jane“Mr. Knightley! Sir! Whatever are you doing?” Her efforts to resist were feeble, for the sake of form only. In fact, she craved nothing more than to feel the heat and hardness of his man’s body against hers. For once, Emma could not deceive herself. Despite her shame, her conscience could not conquer her far more urgent desire. His lips were mere inches from hers while his bold hands clasped her thighs with breathtaking force.
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If he should kiss me, Emma thought, I shall indeed faint away, but if he does not, I doubt I can bear the disappointment.
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The moment of silence drew out, until Emma was convinced her companion was deliberately prolonging her agony. At last he released a laugh, so bold and harsh that it made Emma wonder if he’d gone mad.
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“I’ve changed my opinion, Miss Woodhouse, about your disastrous matchmaking. I’ve come to the conclusion that you are far more likely to mend your ways if you receive a bit of chastisement.”
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You can find the rest here:
http://ohgetagrip.blogspot.com.au/2012/08/miss-woodhouse-receives-spanking.html?zx=cbe3c8205d9360ae
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By the way, I don’t mind Austen characters spanking each other. But I do slightly object to Mr Knightly saying “a bit of chastisement”. I don’t think people said “a bit of” anything, in the Regency period. He might have said a “modicum.”
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Personally, I’d change it to something like “salutary”, or “condign”, but it ‘s not mine. Anyway, there it is: Jane Austen spanking porn. 
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Wood work #3: cutting to length

I cut a 46 centimetre (eighteen inch) length of the plank. That gives a handle of about eight inches and a striking surface of about ten inches. That means the paddle will land across the entire buttocks, or the upper thighs even if the submissive woman has her legs a little apart for her paddling.

The paddle wasn't part of my cultural background. But I soon saw the point of it.

The paddle wasn’t part of my cultural background. But I soon saw the point of it.

This means that although the paddling will hurt from the very first stroke, the second stroke will inevitably land on skin that’s still smarting from the first impact, and hurt much more. The most punishing thing about the paddle, I’m told, is that it’s so absolutely relentless. The site of the impact doesn’t move around, as it does with a caning, or a pleasure-focussed spanking. It just starts hot and sore, right across the buttocks, and then makes the whole area hotter and sorer.

If, as the dom, you want to hear and see sincere signs of sorrow and repentance, to to hear sincere begging and listen to the submissive’s fervent, urgent promises to improve her behaviour, the paddle is the shortest route to that outcome that I know of.

Wood work #2: The plank

plankThe first step was to go to the local hardware store. and buy a plank. I wanted a paddle that wouldn’t cause a girl any harm, but that can bring her to tears and a bright red ass with one stroke.

So I bought a length of wood about two centimetres (2/3 of an inch) thick, and 12 cm (5 inches) wide.

From that you can make a paddle that a submissive woman will look at wide-eyed, and start to imagine how she’ll feel when it lands.

Wood work #1

I’m taking a break from writing the anecdote about Ana, from my days as a probation officer. I’m busy with work at the moment. I want to do justice to what was happening in that relationship between me and Ana. The roles and duties, and the desires, we assigned to each other and ourselves started at complicated and escalated from there. But I’m not going to give spoilers. 

Anyway, I’ll get back to that story when I’m not in a hurry. 

tumblr_mgaoa6SmEy1s2iplso1_400I’m going to talk about something easy, until work settles down. The easy topic is: making a paddle. 

The paddle isn’t really part of my cultural background. Nor are cheerleaders. All those stories and videos about sexy cheerleaders getting the paddle are pretty much a mystery to me.

But I can’t help noticing that submissive women who’ve experienced the wooden paddle talk about the implement with a certain amount of awe, respect and even a sort of fear. The shivery kind of fear that’s half a pleasure, but it’s still fear. 

So I looked at some flimsy-looking paddles in local shops, which wouldn’t do at all. So I decided that I’d make my own. 

Yikes #2: A note on tears

I mentioned, back in Yikes #1, that I told a girl I was going to give her twenty-eight strokes of a thick wooden paddle. We’ll call her tintanabula. I think using lower case for a submissive’s name, in print, is faintly ridiculous and so does she. But that’s exactly why she gets lower case: who said a submissive is allowed typographical dignity?

I’m going to leap ahead in that story, and say that I took her out, naked in the night air, and cuffed her to a whipping frame, with her head down, looking into a forested river valley. She began shedding tears after about five strokes of the paddle, and then sobbing aloud, serenading the valley, after eight. As she began to sob, she could reflect on the fact that there were still twenty strokes to come, and wonder what state she’d be in by the time I’d delivered the full set. 

The paddle: one partner in a love-hate relationship

The paddle: one partner in a love-hate relationship

This is a girl who can take a dozen with the cane dry-eyed. Sore, but not usually crying even when she’s dramatically striped. So she hates the paddle, because it reaches her. It reduces her to nothing but a warm, helpless creature being beaten, with no physical or psychological defences. 

I don’t have to use the paddle at all hard. A firm, controlled swing to bring it down across the centre of her buttocks, with not too long a gap for recovery between the strokes, will elicit a fresh outburst of pain and repentance every time. 

I worry that tintanabula will come to love being paddled: all that helplessness, and the hormonal ride of pain. But in the meantime, it’s the implement to use when I want to punish her and be sure she won’t enjoy it.