Sweet dreams #6: Lovely, lovely

bridge at nightBut I was walking near the restored Old Bridge a little after one in the morning, the drink and drugs part of a Mostar night.The bridge was still crowded, lovers looking down into the river, some drunk tourists looking for whores, skinny old men with grey moustaches. They wear baggy trousers, the pants they wore when they were younger and bigger men.

And their hats are grey. Fedoras, I think, with black sweatbands. The men get skinnier as they get older. The women get fatter. There’s nothing wrong with that. I just don’t know why. 

A beautiful girl emerged out of the crowd, dancing and walking towards me from the darkness. She looked at the mist shining round each of the bridge lamps, dandelion spheres of light. She was entranced by them. She was trying to dress like a scary goth, but she looked like a girl in her mother’s clothes. She was twenty, blonde, ridiculously pretty, sweet-faced and struck by the beauty of everything around her.

She veered my way and into my arms. I was wearing black pants with hose and a russet-red frock coat, in the manner of Van der Decken, the captain of The Flying Dutchman. I had my reasons, which seemed perfectly good at the time.* So I stood out a little, though though not quite as much as the lamp posts.

She said something questioning, which I didn’t have the language for, but I guessed she was asking permission to put her arms round me. Anyway, she did, and then leaned in, getting Cleopatra black eyeliner on russet silk. I hugged her back, keeping my hands well clear of her ass because I didn’t think this was driven by lust.

Not even though I was dressed as an eighteenth century Dutch sea-captain and had such fine legs. Maybe If she’d been a girl stowaway pretending to be a cabin boy,  then she’d have been overcome by lust. I said, “Ah, you’re lovely.” 

Because I’d spoken English she said, “lovely, lovely. Ahhhh. Beautiful.”

 

* I was looking for a girl wearing a hooped green crinoline dress and no knickers. I hoped she’d have some sort of thing going for romantically cursed members of the Dutch merchant marine. Mostar has everything. Sometimes.

Sweet dreams #5: Mostar bullet holes

Taking a break from the Probation Officer story. 

I’m leaving Mostar this afternoon. It was a beautiful city once, before evil nutcases started killing people for evil and stupid ethnic and religious reasons. The bridge over the Neretva river was one of the most beautiful things in the city and for a hundred or so miles in any direction. So evil morons blew it up, with, I expect, a passionate sense of righteousness.

Every so often I’d be sitting in the sun of the new peaceful Mostar, having a rakia in some coffee shop. Rakia made of fermented fruit, and it will burn a couple of layers of the skin of your mouth or throat every time you have a sip. And leave claw marks all the way down the throat. So it’s wonderful. You can relax, eye off girls, and talk about not talking about politics with people who speak English.

mostarBut if you’ve in a shop and you look behind a hanging cloth, or you’re in a market and you happen to see behind a piece of three-ply wood that catches the wind, you’ll see bullet holes in the stone or the old wood. And you can only hope that whoever tried to kill someone there, just a few years ago, missed. But it takes away some of the summer cheer.

Écrasez l’Infâme. In particular, écrasez religion, all of it, including the supposedly harmless stuff that gives cover to the murderous stuff. And the ideologies that work like religion, like communism and fascism. Fuck them all. Fuck ethnic nationalism, too. 

On the other hand, they’ve rebuilt the Old Bridge. Using as much of the original stone as possible. Hope, I suppose. 

More Lican thropology

The Rape of Proserpina, Roman school, c 1700

I eventually realised that Lican was putting up a fight, but – and here, I just had to trust that I was reading her signals right – she wanted me to win. She wanted to know that I had the strength and the lust to force her, before she’d fuck me willingly.

Which is, you know, macho bullshit, and generally stuff that I hate. I don’t just hate it on political grounds; it makes me feel a bit stupid, to be honest, and that’s somewhere near the opposite of sexy. I really don’t enjoy ambiguity about consent.

But I relied on what seemed to be noises of pleasure amongst the struggling sounds, and little gives, like the way she’d stop for a second when I had my hand against her breasts or her cunt. And other places she liked touched. And the fact that she only had to say “no” if she wanted me to stop. I don’t know enough Spanish to cover a post-it note, but I know what “no” means. I’d have understood “basta”, because of Italian. 

So I pushed her legs open with mine, tugged a pleasantly damp bit of gusset out of the way, and pressed my cock forward, and it was only then that she smiled again, said yes-like things, and made me welcome. Which isn’t the order I prefer. I like consent first, then penetration. But we had different ways of getting to the things we both liked.

Lican thropology: male dominance without bdsm

I’ve been thinking about how Lican and I couldn’t say anything complicated to each other, because I don’t speak any of her languages and she doesn’t speak much English.

Angelica could translate between us, but there were things we didn’t feel comfortable talking about, not if we had to talk about them through Angelica. It got easier once Angelica was brought inside our sexual circle, so we could all be more intimate about what we said and did with, or in front of, each other. Even then, there were things that we never said.

We never sorted out what was happening between us when she submitted. Lican feels, as best we’ve been able to clarify this, that a man should rule a woman. She sees that as a general principle: in any heterosexual couple, the man should rule. I just think that a man or a woman can be submissive, or dominant, or not interested in these categories at all. It’s something people can agree to explore, according to what feels right to them and turns them on.

I think I’m right, and that I’d naturally win that argument and convince her, if we were actually able to talk about it. No doubt Lican thinks the opposite.

But one of the first things we did in that hotel room back in Porvenir was to have a wrestling match. We were fighting over possession of her cunt, really. If I won, I’d fuck her. If she won, she’d stay unfucked. So ordinarily I’d have backed off immediately, because that’s pretty much a definition of rape.

But I started the wrestling match because Lican was clearly turned on and wanted to fuck, and she’d been enthusiastic about getting her outer layer of clothes off, and most of my clothes. She pushed me away and closed her legs suddenly, but she was laughing, so I thought it was just a playful, jokey thing. I was happy to hold her and wriggle around on a bed with her, and she seemed happy to be wriggling and rolling. She was laughing, and there was something encouraging about her eyes, but she was still keeping her knickers on, more or less, and her cunt out of my cock’s way. 

That’s not the end of the topic, but I’m out of time. 

Blog basics

I may not tell the full story about the fate of the Rollit. I don’t think it can be done without getting too many of the people who don’t deserve trouble into trouble. 

Anyway, there are a couple fewer sea-lion hunters as a result of it all.

I’m going to take Angelica to a waterhole in a desert, if she comes here, because it’s something she’s never seen. But if Lican comes too, then I’ll just stay here and keep on fucking till I waste away into a shadow. 

Which brings me to this blog, which I’ve been neglecting. I was telling the story of Diane, the vampire girl. I think I’ll pick up where I left off, in my next post. 

The kisses code

I’m still discombombulated. I’m missing Lican and Angelica. It was a good adventure.

Lican and Angelica both wanted to be fucked, when I wasn’t driving. And to be handled firmly. Angelica just liked submitting because it was sex, but Lican was different. Partly she was copying and competing with Angelica, and partly she just wanted to be firmly smacked, mostly just before being fucked, because it took her away from thinking, and back to the physical. Which was safer ground. There were people looking for us, and that’s something to worry about.

I’ve had a text from Angelica. She’s suggested that she comes to visit. She put seven kisses at the end.

Kisses again. Seven kisses is a good number. One kiss is more or less dismissive. Like this: “Kthanx x.”

Two kisses indicate affection but no intention of fucking you: “Thanks for that, and see you later xx”

Three kisses means that they’d like to fuck you, or at least think that you’re not out of the question: “Yes! Thank you! See you soon xxx”

More than three indicates urgency, and probably that they already have fucked you, and want to fuck you again sooner rather than later:

“Thank you, babes. Soon, yes? xxxxxxx”

So Angelica’s coming here. Maybe I should contact Lican.

Warm bed to solo flight

The horrible Buenos Aires Airport

Kissed Lican and Angelica goodbye this morning. Lican cried. Angelica was grave and dry-eyed. I left them together, about 9.00AM, in a room in Gallegos. In a bed, but I don’t think they’ll do anything sexual with each other without a man there with them. Possibly, though it seems too egotistical to be likely, without me with them.  

I don’t know what they’ll do next, though they have some official business. 

Anyway, I took a taxi to the airport at Gallegos, and a flight to Buenos Aires, where I am now. I’m about to board and go home. It’s about time, though it will be odd.


We like trucking and we like to truck (if you don’t like trucking, tough luck!)

We’re parked on a beach, above the tide line, near Gallegos. We’re in a different truck. Lican stopped in a fishing village, and swapped our truck for an older one. The guy seemed to know Lican, and he definitely knew what kind of deal this had to be. So he not only got the better truck out of the deal, he also got a fair-sized wad of cash, rolled up in one of her scrunchies.

However, he’ll have to keep his new truck out of sight for a few months, so it’s not all pixy-dust and gravy in this world. 

Angelica, meanwhile, bought a new mattress, some sheets and a mosquito net. Just one king-size bed, which seemed a good sign. Up to then she’d taken part in threesomes, in the sense that she’d have sex with me, and while I was in her or stroking or licking her, she’d tolerate Lican being there and kissing her too. But left to herself, she’d be physically affectionate to Lican, hugging and kissing her in a sisterly way. She might give Lican a few innocent and giggly-daring intimacies like kissing her nipples, but she wouldn’t go further.

Having Angelica’s face in among her breasts would reduce Lican to gibbering, desperate lust. She’d appeal to me, since Angelica would pretend not to know what she wanted. So I’d tell Angelica to get her head down and lick Lican’s cunt like we did hers, or I’d spank her till she’d have to drive standing up. That worked, and so did giving her a few slaps while she had her head down. After a few smacks, more affectionate than hard, but with a definite warning edge to them, she’d start to lick just a little less primly.

Can you lick a cunt primly? You’d think not, but Angelica managed it. It was as if each one of her movements was a scientific experiment, something never done before, that had to be done carefully, with her observing the results.

It’d be a good approach for teasing, but by the time Angelica got her bottom up and her head down, Lican was past being teased. She just wanted to grind her cunt into Angelica’s face until she came. 

Mostly I’d just stroke the two of them, sweaty, exhausted and fond. Literally shagged out. But if I had anything left, I’d grind, similarly, into Angelica’s ass while she did Lican. Lican said that Angelica got more enthusiastically lesbian when she had my cock in her. I knew what she meant. Anyway, it’s good that life and sex are complicated.  

So Angelica buying a good bed for all three of us was a good sign. I set up the mosquiuto netting. Lican knew the beachside place to park, with the back of the truck open and facing out to sea. 

We’re going to have to move out in the morning. Lican has people to report to and deadlines. I’m just a passenger now. 

The lash

I’m feeling very gaucho with my two girls and my disciplinary duties – for Lican, not so much for Angelica, though when she’s turned on she enjoys a spanking just before my cock slips in. And she’s a very wiggly and satisfactory lapful. So while I’m still in South America, I’m going to get me a whip.

More as a souvenir than for the girls. Well, maybe for Lican.